i love my daddy & mummy... forever...

突然好想出去玩
好想去旅行
可是又想到钱好难赚
开始要为我将来做打算
这几天一直在家按计算机
想存多多的钱
给家人有好日子过
就是知道哥哥的不孝
让家人失望和担忧
所以自己更加的努力工作
尽量不要乱花钱
现在出来工作
保险又是我的负担了
就是因为长大了
我不要再让家人担心
我要尽量靠自己
刚出了一个月的薪水
妈咪还会很自然的给我零用钱
好奇怪的她
明明知道我已经出来工作了
而且还拿了薪水
我还给她足足rm500呢...
我要做你们的好孩子
有能力的话
我要好好照顾你们
我爱你们
永远
永远...

第二次

我不懂为什么我有这样的哥哥？
我不懂为什么他会变成这样？
难道发生事情
哭就能解决吗？
这是第二次了...
也不能够再隐瞒妈咪了
妈咪知道后
昨晚也睡不好
谁也睡不好
因为没有想过他会做出这样的事
家人对他很失望
我也是
这次欠别人的钱
还多过上次
我听到都摇头
我真的没有想到他会欠别人那么多钱
不是一个小数目
是RM150k 左右
我都被吓倒
借钱那么爽快
叫你还钱
你要怎样还
可是爸爸说没办法
谁叫他是我们的家人
不帮谁帮他
这也是最后一次机会
妈咪今天已经警告过
如再不改进
不用回来
就当做没有生过他
还有很毒的话
希望他能改过。

Training & No $$$

我还以为要positive thinking就能把这份工作做好

原来是不能的

Training了第四天终于知道自己不喜欢

很有压力

我明白你所讲的东西

每份工都有他的压力

可是你并不明白我的内心想什么

When我开始training

我的心就很紧张

回到家又要收拾家里

家人又吵吵吵

我真的不懂要怎么办
前两天还失眠

你都知道我的事情很少会跟家人说 (我是不要让家人担心)

(连自己毕业都不敢说)

自己又累

又要想很多那些training的东西

还没进到去就这样累了

今天家人还以为我去做工

其实我并不是

终于试过自己一个人去唱k

也蛮不错的

喜欢唱什么就点什么歌

但是when我到家

妈咪问我做工做到怎样

我还是和她说了

我下星期一在Segi做工

最后什么都和她说了

Haiz... 我的四天薪水没了啦

我觉得他们并不会出薪水给我的

因为是我自己要走的

他们的contract就是要before七天通知才能辞职

Haiz yaa... 

那碗snowflake 和 那条辣椒

弄到我肚子一直发出声音@感觉到肚子热热

要去吃药💊了

Good night...

My life today...

每当看见他的新消息
心里就有点不舒服
有想过要Block 掉他
不想再看到他Post出来有多亲密的照片
搞到自己又Emo了

其实我不懂是真的还是假的
虽然我们什么话题都能说
但是我想我们保持一点距离比较好
因为我不想大家做出错的决定

我长大了
我要准备找工赚钱养家了
可是却为了找工而烦恼
却不懂什么和那份行业适合我
我是找到的
现在只等电话
等他们来call 我

这几天
一面等电话
一面接part time 的job
刚刚又接到一份3天工作
她说可以尽快下星期出薪水给我
因为我很急钱用
谢谢啦

接多这三天工
收录又接近RM1K出了
加油加油。。。

Hope can get my 1st full time job

Is a boring day

I never tell my parents I start graduated 

I have my reason

Sometime I'm thinking

If I tell them I was graduated 

What they think of me?

I dislike stay at home 

Maybe my mum will scold me

Maybe only (I'm not sure)

I don't want stay at home whole day

If she know I was graduated 

Maybe she not allow me out everyday

Sigh...

I know i think too much 

This Friday night 

One of my friend is celebrate birthday at luna bar

He's invite many people join his big day party

This guy is damn rich

We worked Event together before

I think he invite almost 60++ included me

Inside his group of friends I just know 7 or 8 peoples 

Honestly

I never join big party b4

Is scarely

Today I was received 3 Job call

1is from segi college, 2 is from aeon and 3 is from Sony company

This Friday I need to go 3 different of place for interview

Tension 

DOn't know how about the salary they given

Hope I can successful and can get my full time 1st job

Long time I didn't sing k

Tomorrow can sing gao gao loo...

See you there... 

Need a full time job...

Finally finished my exam
But I can't tell my parents
I already finished my diploma level
This not means I need to lie them
I just hope I can find a full time job
Then Only tell them I can come out work already
And I'm not a smaller girl
I can come out earn money and i can give some money for my mummy
And I can treat my parents dinner or what if I am working.

I don't know what I can do in this week
So, tomorrow I hang out with 1 of my classmate watch movie at pavillion
I'm so excited watch that new movie (resident evil)
Actually this movie
Plan wan to ask calvin
He wait me date him
just now he is saying to me
But
I think maybe I can't watch with him in this month
Because I maybe have work as part time at Watson
I'm poor now
No enough money to spend

I hope everyday also is a good day
And bring lucky for me
My life...

Good night all...

Disappointed...

These few day sleep not well

Because of you

Make me insomnia 

I don't know how to help you

Because is a big amount

In my mind, 

You are my good brother

Why suddenly you will change another person?

In that time,

I'm so disappointed

And I can't tell other people

I was very hard and sad, 

Did you know?

I know these few days you also afraid and sleep not well 

Finally,

My brother courage tell my daddy 

Because only my daddy can helped him

Sigh... 

I really don't know how to say him